CHAPTER 6: THE AMNESIA COMA

It has been a while since my last entry and I apologize to my readers for this. My job has been very busy with long hours that has left me exhausted at night and unable to write. Having said that, lets continue.

I had just slipped into a coma and with that, a state of unconsciousness. To any observer, it appears that when this happens a person is in a "sleep like" state. They are unaware of anything around them because in all appearances, you seem to be asleep. In my case and I cannot speak for others but this was not true ! I willingly went into this coma for two reasons. One, I wanted to close out my physical surroundings because I did not recognize anything around me and two, it was a way to lessen my movements in trying to get away from that terrible pain I was in.

I quickly put it together that all these people around my body were doing all they could to lessen my pain. So, I just "gave in"and let them work on my body. As this was happening, something else was going on. Something on the memory side of me and something on the "awareness" side of me. Almost in the same moment that I succumb to the coma, all the answers to all my questions that I had, when I was in the spirit world, were now lost. I felt very drained and empty of knowledge. Everything regarding my family, friends, who I was, such as my name and age, how I had gotten there in this room and who all these people were. All of this was rapidly draining from me, until it got to the point that some of the things that I overheard, made no sense to me. Yes, I said overheard. I say this because this was the "second" thing that was going on. I was becoming very much aware of things that I heard around me.

I thought to myself, this must be my price to pay for being allowed to come back to this body. This thought made me sad and I wanted to cry or show some kind of emotion, but I didn't know how. However since my pain was slowly going away, I did not pursue this thought. I thought instead that there must be a reason for all this and maybe later I would find out. With my memory rapidly leaving me, I had nothing to draw on for a point of reference, for all the things I was hearing. I heard people speak of my condition. I had a depressed skull fracture, two broken arms that were severely crushed, one of which they were considering amputating at the elbow and a severely crushed wrist that they had just inserted with nails to hold my hand in place, a crushed shoulder, detached retinas in both eyes with numerous pieces of plastic debris from my helmet still embedded in both eyes, a ruptured spleen, a torn colon, a crushed kidney, 5 broken ribs, a broken jaw, numerous deep lacerations about my face that definitely would need plastic surgery and severe abrasions to my upper body. Hearing all of this , had no impact on me because I did not know what any of this meant.

I remained in a comatose state for what I later found out to be nearly 9 months. Only necessary surgery to keep me alive had been done on me. I found out later there were two reasons for this. One was because there was a lawsuit involved and my case was still pending and the second reason was because no one knew if or when I was going to come out of the coma. So all this time was the "lets just wait and see what happens" part of my recovery.

I had gone from a weight of 275 pounds of muscle to just over 145 lbs of skin and bones. But I was alive. I want to make a point here. In my case, there were many times I could of come out of my coma. Without having a sense of time, you are not aware of how long you are in it. You DO know it is NOT painful and ALL of your needs are cared for. No need to "get up" to do anything ! You are fed, bathed, clothed, medicated and all of your bodily functions are "taken care of by nurses" . So, having amnesia and nothing to "remember", all you do is listen to all that is around you. And in my case there was only one thing that brought me out of my coma.

More to follow...